Dilemma

本来打算不要再写部落格了
可是今天突然心血来潮
上个星期四查到自己入选国名服务后
我的心情就一直很不好
可是我不得不把心情调好
因为SPM才是最重要的
一天一天的过去
我也不再去多想

刚才放学回到家
我问了妈妈关于UCSI University
她说她帮我问了
3年补习费都已经有四十多千
一月就可以进去修读了
一来可以不用去国民服务
二来可以不用读政府学院
可是我还是犹豫不决
因为总以前到现在
我就不想要用他们的钱
虽然如此
我还是会考虑@@

上次很多私人大学来到学校
我问了其中一所关于政府大学
那位小姐说matrikulasi不受世界承认
可是今天又有朋友说政府大学很好
可以申请很多东西
搞到我不懂怎么做选择

不管怎样
最重要要先把成绩搞好
预考和大马文凭考试
加油！！
朋友们也一起加油XDD

回家的路上..

今天真的很惨
说老师早放也不是
迟放也不是
我知道我肯定是赶不上两点半的巴士了
还好你一直坚持要载我
对不起啊
匆匆地赶去你妈的车
还麻烦了她
载我一程
结果到了巴士站
刚好巴士也跟着弯了出来
真的想不到还来得及
除了要说声对不起
我还要说谢谢
谢谢谢谢谢谢谢谢谢谢！！XD

可是上了巴士付钱的时候
司机不小心踩了一下油门
害我差一点跌下巴士
超不爽的
也许这是我赶得上巴士需付出的代价吧><

后来
在路途中的一个巴士站
有好几位在这下车
就刚好有一位残障的叔叔
看他的样子应该是脚有问题
走路一拐一拐
就因为他走得慢
司机也没等
准备就这样开车走了
有人就喊还有人没下
那没脑的司机
突然来个刹车
那也叔叔摔得四脚朝天
哇老
我在想到底他会不会驾车
谋杀咩= =

算了
算我倒霉
希望下次不要在遇到这样的司机
要不然我宝贵的生命可不保不住XDXD

What a nightmare

In a late night

A night with eerie silence

With no cars on the road

No stars in the sky

I was looking outside the window in a van

The shops were all closed

It was so dark

As if those buildings have been left for decades

Everyone in the van was quiet and somehow gave me a scary feeling

I exchanged a look with my sister

Dare not to speak a word

Hoping to reach home as soon as possible

After a few moments

We were dropped by the driver in front of a shophouse

The corridor was illuminated by dim-orange light

Goosepimples started to appeared on my skin

Adrenaline was actively secreted into my blood stream

I held my sister's hand tightly

Our palms were moist

Bewildered

Did not know what to do

All of a sudden

A green light was coming from afar

Flying at a extreme high speed

My reflex was forcing me to run

All the strength gathered at my leg muscles

Grabbing my sister's wrist

I ran along the corridor

Until we reached an opened door

It was invisible to see what's inside the door

All we could see was only darkness and black

Without second thought 

I entered the door 

I was tripped by a stair step

Collapsed on the staircase

The story after this is an unknown

It was one of the most frightening nightmares I had had during my childhood

Curiosity filled my head

Until today I was still wondering about such a weird nightmare

LOL

Lifeless recess

Today went school to relax only 

Even though teachers were entering class 

but I still felt as if we have done nothing in school

During recess

The library was closed due to MUET examination 

I strolled around the school

Flashback

Leaving the library

Walking through the staffroom and laboratories

Passing through the carpark

That's the place where small assembly was held every morning when we're in Form 3

Passing through the art classes

Arriving at the Form 2 blocks

Those classrooms..

Our laughters and noises are still clearly ringing in my ears

Taking a glance at the 'pondok' in front of 2A5

Recalling the memories we decorated it

And how we had built Madam Tan's anger LOL

Continuing my journey to the cafeteria and greet joey them

Reaching Form 1 block

It is such an old building

From such an ancient old buiding

We are transferred to Form 5 classrooms

Halting my step upon reaching the corridor outside the dorm

This was the place we trained our marching during St John activities

But some kind of building constructions had already completely covered the ground

I continued my pace towards the bastketball court

Since it is recess,there are no people left

I think time's out

Changing my direction returning to the classroom

End of flashback

What a lifeless day haha XD

Pointless :d

Tomorrow..

is going to be a boring day

Not only most of people going for chinese oral assessment

But also individual photography session

First two period is history

means that there are two sleeping period ><

If not for the photography session

I think maybe I won't be going to school

Haizzzzz

Seriously boredom is drowning me

Because I have been playing games in my phone for so long

Dizziness and laziness are striking me

Feel lazy to open my book and..

STUDY!!!

Shit la..

I had already resisted myself from dozing off for so many times

Just because the stupid SPM

I had tried to resist myself from online,TV,ipad and so on

Sadistically

I failed to control myself over these distractions LOL :D

Fine I will only study after I take a bath zzz

How long am I going to endure anymore??

Must not sleep too early

Must not online too long

Must not defeated by laziness

Must not affected by countless of distractions

Anyway this is going to end after SPM ><||

Oops..

I almost forget

In order to fill my boredom for tomorrow

I will just search for lots and lots of sudoku on internet

Yeah I am so clever!!XDXD

唉

今天去学校的心情本来还蛮好的

一直到下课

走进图书馆

就有几个人来讲话射我

拜托

我真的没有去stalk别人的成绩

再说这也不关你们的事

还真八卦zzz

更惨的是

你今天总算让我见识到你真正的一面

我给你害得很惨

有时会听到别人说你坏话

但是今天被你这两头蛇咬了一口后

我真的死的很惨

你一直说我们恐怖

那你呢？

求求你以后不要再来我面前摆那种脸

伪君子zzz

我选择不去在乎是因为这一句话

“若别人一直想把你拉下来，那只证明你在他们之上”

如果煽风点火破坏人家能让你平衡你的心理

那我可以体谅，不去跟你计较

唉

总而言之

被诬赖真不是滋味

明明就没做的事还要这样被别人讥讽

算了

不跟你们一般见识zzz!!!

受够了zzz

种族歧视

最讨厌这样的人

我们为了要达到目标

一直这样的努力

可是却被那些对种族歧视的人来破坏

想起来真的很愤怒

也很无奈

在这个国家

有太多太多排华的人

我们到底犯了什么罪？

妈的。。

算了啦

总之以后我一定不会继续待在这里==

酱快又一个星期了

明天又是星期六

可以睡迟一些

可是最近总是天还没亮就醒了

很多时候调了闹钟

却在闹钟还没响之前就自动清醒

这到底是好事还是坏事？

现在是榴莲季节

到处都可以闻到榴莲的“香味”

弄到我不得不“提神”

在图书馆吸够了榴莲的味道

回到家还得忍受此痛苦TT

更可悲的是家人都爱吃榴莲

只有我

完全不敢踏出房门一步><
真是想不通
我到底是不是这个家的一份子？@@

我再也不能忍受现在的生活

我受够了！！！