What I really want :)

I remember it was a Tuesday morning, 8.17 a.m.

I grabbed my phone on the table near me and my eyes were half opened.

What I expected turned out to be unexpected.

Scrolling through my emails, I saw an email from University of California, Santa Barbara(UCSB)

I received a conditional offer from UCSB!

I refrained myself from screaming because my roommate was still sleeping so peacefully.

Feeling shocked and surprised, I screamed in my heart because my hard work was finally paid off.

From that day onward, I decided to pursue my degree of Actuarial Science in the U.S.

On the other hand, I have got conditional offers from University College London (UCL), and University of Manchester as well.

LSE rejected me and I was quite down because it seemed to be hopeless for me to go to the U.K.

U.K has always been the place I wanted to go because I really want to experience the culture and the lifestyles there and to travel around EU countries.

Friends around me kept on telling I can enjoy the "university life" there because it's California and my school was a famous party school, UCSB a.k.a University of Casual Sex and Beer.

I was terrified at that moment and one friend pat my shoulders and told me that all the universities are the same.

However, my heart seemed to oppose my decision. 

I wasn't really happy of heading to the U.S.

To be honest, I always tried to google something good about UCL to convince myself that UCL is actually better than UCSB so that I can really have excuse to go to the U.K instead of the U.S but I failed to do so.

In terms of credits and qualifications, UCSB is better.

Until last week, I decided to go to the U.K because that has been my dream from the very beginning.

Deep from my heart, I could always hear a voice calling me not to go to the U.S.

I am going to the University of Manchester, which is a better school compared to UCSB in terms of credits and exemptions, duration of study and costs.

After all, I realised that there are a lot of challenges, distractions and dilemmas in the journey of chasing dreams.

Sometimes we should really find a quiet place and think. Ask yourself what do you really want and be brave enough to go and pursue it.