Monday, 31 December 2012

The last post of 2012

95 minutes to go...
It's gonna be another year -- 2013
It's a very very different year
which is a brand new year that is going to be filled with new experiences
Tomorrow is gonna be the last outing with friends,perhaps
Enjoy every moments left
Thank you all the friends and people who appeared in my life
Let bygones be bygones
Everything is going to become past after 12am tonight
Let's forget all the sad memories
Happy New Year Eve!!! 

Sunday, 16 December 2012

多几天...

再过多几天就要上云顶了
这个假期没什么特别
跟以往的没什么分别
可是心情却是非笔墨所能形容的无奈
开学后再也看不到老朋友
多几天
我就要到大学去
必须要自己独立
现在的我深怕自己没办法适应
虽然有时很期待
可是害怕和紧张总是会有的
不知道大学的生活怎样
无论如何
我只能希望像我想象那样的自由自在
我知道有很多朋友还想要休息多几个月
可是不懂我为什么那么赶着上大学
可能是怕呆在家无所事事吧XD
再过多几天
我即将展开新的人生
走上新的道路
剩下的这几天
已经渐渐地被耗尽
祝一月升学的朋友们一切顺顺利利
也祝其他朋友们假期快乐
加油 :)

Monday, 26 November 2012

无题 LOL

中学生涯剩没几天
应该开开心心过完剩下的这几天
接下去的日子都不懂会是怎样
感觉上好像在海上漂浮的一艘船
毫无方向
不管了
总而言之拼完这几天就是了
生物学试卷,请你明天对我好一点><
加油!!!

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

坦然面对 :)

兜了一个那么大的圈
始终回到了原点

Thursday, 20 September 2012

给“过客”的一封信

真为你感到开心
折腾了两年
结果还是返回原点
之前的一切就好像一场梦
令人难以置信
就算是一场梦
我也很感恩了
毕业后
我们就都自由了
虽然感到无奈
心里还是有那么一点点期待
无法想象往后的日子真么过
更无法想象大学和工作的生活
看到现在的你
我真的很开心
在这短短的两年里
你变了许多
也开朗了许多
这样
至少我不会感到那么愧疚
可以看得出你的成绩也进步了
恭喜你 XD
好好加油吧
今年你的生日我没有送你任何东西
不懂你还记不记得你说过的
一份礼物的意义并不是外表有多华丽
也不是价钱标的数位有几多
所以我不送
(把这些话都还给你 XD )
你每一封信
每一句鼓励的话
我都不会忘记
最后再次祝你生日快乐
永远快乐 :)

无奈

时间过得很快
转眼间预考也过了
成绩也都拿得七七八八了
接下来也就是中学生涯最大也是最后的挑战了
压力越来越大了
真希望我永远是个长不大的孩子
天空灰灰的
好像正在向我表示对我的同情
突然心情感觉很沉重
就好像天上的乌云
这几天天气阴晴不定
是不是代表着世界末日的莅临
没人知晓
最近迷失了自己
被预考成绩搞到头脑快要爆炸了
以为预考完了可以休息
哪里知道最近学校的人手中都拿着参考书到处走
千万不要有太大的期望
要不然失望会更大
只要做好自己的本分就好了
反正拼也是最后一次了
再也无法挣分数
再不满意也只能接受
今天分的最后一科 —— 物理学让我大失所望
结果朋友们在开心唱歌的当儿
我却不断在翻考卷
翻到最后还不是一样改变不了事实
早知道就去唱个痛快
算了吧
无论如何
拼了!!
朋友们你们也加油!!

Friday, 3 August 2012

Sigh

Opening my history textbook
Felt like dozing off
Lifting the book to my bed
Putting it aside
And starting to mumble about the lame facts
Eyelids turning heavier
I was slowly drifted to dreamland


After one hour
My handphone rang
Saw nothing but a strange yet weird number
Felt anxious yet anticipated
As what I expected
It was from Inti college


''Is this Eng Kheng?" asked from a soft lady voice
Didn't know why but her voice sounded warm and comforting LOL
I was totally sobered up


Enquired a lot about American Degree Transfer Programme ( ADTP )
If I am to take this pathway
I do not have to study Foundation,straight to Degree


Next Saturday is Inti college university open day
Want to go and ask for more information
The only problem is my parents' schedule
Their work are endless
It's definitely impossible for them to bring me to the college


After a few minutes
I still blurred
I wanted to know the approximate price for the entire course


Unless I obtain JPA
otherwise my parents have to spend their money
And the cost isn't cheap ><


Back to history textbook
A lot else to complete
*FAINTING*

Tuesday, 31 July 2012

Dilemma

本来打算不要再写部落格了
可是今天突然心血来潮
上个星期四查到自己入选国名服务后
我的心情就一直很不好
可是我不得不把心情调好
因为SPM才是最重要的
一天一天的过去
我也不再去多想

刚才放学回到家
我问了妈妈关于UCSI University
她说她帮我问了
3年补习费都已经有四十多千
一月就可以进去修读了
一来可以不用去国民服务
二来可以不用读政府学院
可是我还是犹豫不决
因为总以前到现在
我就不想要用他们的钱
虽然如此
我还是会考虑@@

上次很多私人大学来到学校
我问了其中一所关于政府大学
那位小姐说matrikulasi不受世界承认
可是今天又有朋友说政府大学很好
可以申请很多东西
搞到我不懂怎么做选择

不管怎样
最重要要先把成绩搞好
预考和大马文凭考试
加油!!
朋友们也一起加油XDD

Monday, 16 July 2012

回家的路上..

今天真的很惨
说老师早放也不是
迟放也不是
我知道我肯定是赶不上两点半的巴士了
还好你一直坚持要载我
对不起啊
匆匆地赶去你妈的车
还麻烦了她
载我一程
结果到了巴士站
刚好巴士也跟着弯了出来
真的想不到还来得及
除了要说声对不起
我还要说谢谢
谢谢谢谢谢谢谢谢谢谢!!XD

可是上了巴士付钱的时候
司机不小心踩了一下油门
害我差一点跌下巴士
超不爽的
也许这是我赶得上巴士需付出的代价吧><

后来
在路途中的一个巴士站
有好几位在这下车
就刚好有一位残障的叔叔
看他的样子应该是脚有问题
走路一拐一拐
就因为他走得慢
司机也没等
准备就这样开车走了
有人就喊还有人没下
那没脑的司机
突然来个刹车
那也叔叔摔得四脚朝天
哇老
我在想到底他会不会驾车
谋杀咩= =

算了
算我倒霉
希望下次不要在遇到这样的司机
要不然我宝贵的生命可不保不住XDXD

Friday, 13 July 2012

What a nightmare

In a late night
A night with eerie silence
With no cars on the road
No stars in the sky

I was looking outside the window in a van
The shops were all closed
It was so dark
As if those buildings have been left for decades
Everyone in the van was quiet and somehow gave me a scary feeling

I exchanged a look with my sister
Dare not to speak a word
Hoping to reach home as soon as possible

After a few moments
We were dropped by the driver in front of a shophouse
The corridor was illuminated by dim-orange light
Goosepimples started to appeared on my skin
Adrenaline was actively secreted into my blood stream

I held my sister's hand tightly
Our palms were moist
Bewildered
Did not know what to do

All of a sudden
A green light was coming from afar
Flying at a extreme high speed
My reflex was forcing me to run

All the strength gathered at my leg muscles
Grabbing my sister's wrist
I ran along the corridor
Until we reached an opened door
It was invisible to see what's inside the door
All we could see was only darkness and black

Without second thought 
I entered the door 
I was tripped by a stair step
Collapsed on the staircase

The story after this is an unknown
It was one of the most frightening nightmares I had had during my childhood
Curiosity filled my head
Until today I was still wondering about such a weird nightmare
LOL

Monday, 2 July 2012

Lifeless recess

Today went school to relax only 
Even though teachers were entering class 
but I still felt as if we have done nothing in school
During recess
The library was closed due to MUET examination 
I strolled around the school

Flashback
Leaving the library
Walking through the staffroom and laboratories
Passing through the carpark
That's the place where small assembly was held every morning when we're in Form 3
Passing through the art classes
Arriving at the Form 2 blocks
Those classrooms..
Our laughters and noises are still clearly ringing in my ears
Taking a glance at the 'pondok' in front of 2A5
Recalling the memories we decorated it
And how we had built Madam Tan's anger LOL
Continuing my journey to the cafeteria and greet joey them
Reaching Form 1 block
It is such an old building
From such an ancient old buiding
We are transferred to Form 5 classrooms
Halting my step upon reaching the corridor outside the dorm
This was the place we trained our marching during St John activities
But some kind of building constructions had already completely covered the ground
I continued my pace towards the bastketball court
Since it is recess,there are no people left
I think time's out
Changing my direction returning to the classroom
End of flashback

What a lifeless day haha XD

Wednesday, 27 June 2012

Pointless :d

Tomorrow..
is going to be a boring day
Not only most of people going for chinese oral assessment
But also individual photography session
First two period is history
means that there are two sleeping period ><
If not for the photography session
I think maybe I won't be going to school
Haizzzzz
Seriously boredom is drowning me
Because I have been playing games in my phone for so long
Dizziness and laziness are striking me
Feel lazy to open my book and..
STUDY!!!
Shit la..
I had already resisted myself from dozing off for so many times
Just because the stupid SPM
I had tried to resist myself from online,TV,ipad and so on
Sadistically
I failed to control myself over these distractions LOL :D
Fine I will only study after I take a bath zzz

How long am I going to endure anymore??
Must not sleep too early
Must not online too long
Must not defeated by laziness
Must not affected by countless of distractions
Anyway this is going to end after SPM ><||

Oops..
I almost forget
In order to fill my boredom for tomorrow
I will just search for lots and lots of sudoku on internet
Yeah I am so clever!!XDXD

Monday, 25 June 2012

今天去学校的心情本来还蛮好的
一直到下课
走进图书馆
就有几个人来讲话射我
拜托
我真的没有去stalk别人的成绩
再说这也不关你们的事
还真八卦zzz
更惨的是
你今天总算让我见识到你真正的一面
我给你害得很惨
有时会听到别人说你坏话
但是今天被你这两头蛇咬了一口后
我真的死的很惨
你一直说我们恐怖
那你呢?
求求你以后不要再来我面前摆那种脸
伪君子zzz
我选择不去在乎是因为这一句话

“若别人一直想把你拉下来,那只证明你在他们之上”

如果煽风点火破坏人家能让你平衡你的心理
那我可以体谅,不去跟你计较

总而言之
被诬赖真不是滋味
明明就没做的事还要这样被别人讥讽
算了
不跟你们一般见识zzz!!!

Friday, 22 June 2012

受够了zzz

种族歧视
最讨厌这样的人
我们为了要达到目标
一直这样的努力
可是却被那些对种族歧视的人来破坏
想起来真的很愤怒
也很无奈
在这个国家
有太多太多排华的人
我们到底犯了什么罪?
妈的。。
算了啦
总之以后我一定不会继续待在这里==

酱快又一个星期了
明天又是星期六
可以睡迟一些
可是最近总是天还没亮就醒了
很多时候调了闹钟
却在闹钟还没响之前就自动清醒
这到底是好事还是坏事?

现在是榴莲季节
到处都可以闻到榴莲的“香味”
弄到我不得不“提神”
在图书馆吸够了榴莲的味道
回到家还得忍受此痛苦TT
更可悲的是家人都爱吃榴莲
只有我
完全不敢踏出房门一步><
真是想不通
我到底是不是这个家的一份子?@@

我再也不能忍受现在的生活
我受够了!!!

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

无聊的一堆话 XD

又是闷的一天
大家都筹备着一年一度的颁奖典礼
进来上课的老师也寥寥无几
我们也几乎无所事事
今天考卷也分完了
松了一口气
今晚终于可以好好睡觉了

刚刚在学海看到两个有意思的句子

“连叶子都不敢摸的人,怎敢走入森林”
“若别人一直想把你拉下来,那只证明你在他们之上”

今天看了最新一期的学海
翻到了有一大堆这些东西的一面
不知怎么
就是这两个句子捉住了我的视线
害我在道德课时发呆><
还有还有
学海里头还有一篇非常适合姿颖的文章
(这不是我说的,不要骂我XDXD )
题目我不大记得
我也没有仔细去读每一行每个字
大概瞄过一眼罢了XP

八度空间播的韩剧——秘密花园也完了
无论怎样,这部韩剧我都百看不厌
现在播的是“荣光的在仁”
其实吸引我来看这部韩剧的原因主要是因为它的插曲
以前我超喜欢那首歌
后来也没去听了
现在突然从电视里又在听到这首歌
总觉得不该错过这套戏XDXD

准备梳洗自己
整理书包然后睡觉了
今晚一定要大睡一场 =P

Wednesday, 13 June 2012

Miserable

School had reopened for almost a week
A few exam papers left
It was hard for us to accept our papers continuously
within this four days
half of me has died
but I am going to resurrect soon XDXD
I think I should work harder and strive for a better result next exam
NEXT EXAM...
it's our SPM trial exam
No more time to enjoy :(
Haiz goodluck to myself and all my friends ><

Honestly
I felt uneasy recently
My heart was thumping hard for some times
As if the atmosphere around me had changed
As if everything around me has changed
Since I changed my bedroom with my parents
I also felt that I gained a lot of free time
And I do not know what to do
I want my bedroom back :((((((
The most weirdly is I had become holidays haters ><
I dislike holidays
Because seriously I do not know what to do to fill my free time
Gosh I hate this!!!
I tried to find some homework to do 
Tried to open reference books to study
Tried to do some exercises
But I failed
I could not even concentrate on these things
Shit laaa
SPM is coming soon
The most importantly is I need to find something to do
Otherwise I am going to get Alzhemier's disease for staring at the ceiling for the whole day zzz
Find something for me to do!!!!

Wednesday, 6 June 2012

加油

年终考试的时候
一直都在期待着假期的到来
现在两个星期的假期也快结束了
这个假期过得毫无意义
现在反而想念学校了
天天都在期待开学的那天
可是那意味着恶梦的开始
钱老师已经开始讨论考卷了
其它科目想必将接二连三地分发下来
我最讨厌这样的心情
有些紧张
错,是非常紧张
开学的第一天
我们应该都会带着那副充满压力的脸上学
这样的气氛最可怕
人人都十分紧绷
(虽然我知道有些人不会)
无论如何
我依然希望快点开学
因为我快闷死了
希望开学的那个星期可以一切顺利><
希望我的口试也可以拿满分><
加油!

Sunday, 3 June 2012

“新房间”

唉~
一个美好的午觉又被破坏了
刚才睡到一半
突然妈妈来敲我的房门
说要换房间
爸爸说这样才能让他们生意兴隆
对我的学业也有帮助
我死都不会信zzz
哇老我超不满的
他们不懂从哪里道听途说
竟然可以迷信到这样的地步
我到现在都还一肚子火
结果花了我整个下午来整理我一叠叠的书
不仅如此
我们还得打扫整个房间
浪费时间也浪费力气
不止流了整个下午的汗
也当了整个下午的吸尘器
现在房间也对调了
本来我的房间在我家的最尾端
现在变成最前端了
一时之间适应不过来
很不习惯“新房间”的墙壁和空气
想来想去
他们真的很不讲理
这样突然地就把我的房间给拆了
算了吧
希望我的学业真的能突飞猛进
要不然我死也要换回我的房间TT

Friday, 1 June 2012

什么鬼假期啦TT

假期好漫长啊
讲真的
拜五真的很难过咧
这几天都一直跟着爸爸妈妈出去到处走
昨天其实蛮爽的
虽然他们到槟城去工作
可是我们也吃得肚子圆圆
真是爽快!
今天他们又再下去槟城
可是不懂为什么我决定不跟去
结果现在在家闷死==
折腾了老半天
刚才好不容易睡着了
希望可以一睡到晚上
不用一直闷下去
谁知一通电话把我给乱醒
原来是姿颖打电话来告诉我我的addmath project有一些错误
结果做了一些改正
现在写部落格
等下呢??
只能望着窗口发呆咯
假期真的是超闷的
讨厌死假期
还有一个星期咧
谁可以救救我??TT

Right Here Waiting For You :)

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain


If I see you next to never
How can we say forever


Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes 
Oh how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you


I took for granted all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now


Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy


Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes 
Oh how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you


I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance


Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Oh how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you~

Saturday, 26 May 2012

救命!!

啊啊啊啊啊啊
吃得好饱~XDD
呃。。
突然心血来潮想写部落格
过去的事也就算了
决定不再去想它
不懂为什么懒惰用英文写部落格
可能是被某某人影响吧
(有些人又要暗爽料XDD)
最近我到底是干嘛
整天无精打采
心里总是忐忑不安
有时眼皮一直不停地跳
昨晚整晚不能睡
耳边一直有吵杂的声音
眼皮是关着的可是头脑明明还清醒着
在床上翻了好几个小时才入眠
刚刚心跳还加速得很厉害
不过几秒就没了
是不是发生了什么事
坐在电脑面前发呆了几分钟
我到底在干嘛!!
觉得我需要找一些事情来忙才可以
要不然一直呆在家里真的会疯掉

Forgiveness

Forgiving is not forgetting.
It's letting go of hurt. :)

Thursday, 24 May 2012

???

有时候
觉得太在意
只会让自己受更大的伤
当痛到麻木了
自然而然就会放手了
有时候
自己明明很在意
却要装作自己很不在意
其实伪装不是件易事
都不知我是怎么熬过的
反正只是继续多熬几个月
没什么大问题XD
只要不去看不去听就好了嘿嘿
你说我天真
我到现在都还在质疑
真的是我头脑简单还是你想太多了@@
人生总是很无奈
至于人呢,
无可否认人是很奇怪的动物
不管是心里还是脑里都令人难以捉摸
兜了一个大圈
到底为什么你说我天真???
脑海力浮现出许多问号
始终不能解答 ><
为什么事情要那么复杂
弄到我头昏脑胀 zzzz

无奈

年中考试终于过了
可是我似乎感觉不到一丝轻松
反而是越来越大的压力
接踵而来
这次的考试算是还好吧
虽然不是说很满意,但又能怎样呢?
只能怪我临时抱佛脚
等到最后一刻才肯拿起书来读
唉~
一直这样等待时间流逝
SPM就快到了咧
总觉得生活过的没有什么意义,好无奈
不懂为什么最近变得那么消极
只想再度回到中四那种轻松自在的生活
没什么压力,成天只享受读书
至少,没现在那么大的压力
压得我快喘不过气了
我们的中学生涯就快要结束了
分开是迟早的事
但是我希望时间不会冲淡我们的友情
友谊永固~

华文作文写了一篇关于人生
但那些都不是我真正的心声
我要的人生只是简简单单、平平凡凡
谁说人生是一座舞台
我们只要做自己喜欢做的事
又不是要演给别人看
谁说人生一定要过得轰轰烈烈才算精彩
对我来说只要过得开心
跟身边的人有说有笑已经满足了
我不想要留学,更不想工作
只是想找一个宁静的地方过日子,与世隔绝
夸张吧 XD
算了吧,当我在讲废话吧,刚睡醒,头脑还不是很清醒XP

总而言之
以后的事,以后再说
不管怎样也只能走一步看一步了
想在只想好好享受这几天短短的假期
假期快乐~!! =)

Tuesday, 8 May 2012

这一次真的惨了
我完了
惨了。。。

Can i just go and die? =_=

Stress
Everytime is like this during exam
Everyone is tension
Seeing so many people studying 
Chemistry,additional mathematics,biology
Glancing back at my not-yet-finish-studied history textbook
Feel like I have no time left
Everyone studied more than me
Few weeks ago..
Thought i was such a good planner
Assumed that I could finish all my syllabus bfore the exam
But see what has happened??
Until now,i have not even finished my history
Most friends absent and studied at home
But me???
Haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz
I am so gonna dead this time :(

Audtion for teachers' day's performance
I was waiting for so long for it
I really don't want to give up
I want to perform for my last year of my secondary school life
It seems..hopeless..
no matter how long i wait LOL
maybe the God knows that i am gonna do wrong on stage
And so..never want to give me a chance :(((
Haihhhhh

Feel that there're too many things did not go well
Everything happened against my will
Shit laaaaaaa
I have totally lost my mood in studying history
Damn it!!

Thursday, 19 April 2012

Sweet memories

Tonnes of food and drinks
Small colourful flags
Runners and athletes were running on their own lane
The extremely loud cheering of the supporters was still so loud ringing in my mind


We had had lots of funs today during Carnival Relay
Took photos anywhere with anyone
Cheered and shouted like there's no tomorrow
Ate and drank like huge elephants 
Talked and chitchatted as if the world's going to end 
hahaha those happy memories were so vividly etched and imprinted in my mind
Thinking of these make me smile 


Actually
It wasn't that important
Whether it's win or lose
At least you have completed the run
No one will blame you
So you don't have to feel sad and blame youself
You have tried your best
You represented our class
It was more than enough for us haha
Therefore..
OSP NEVER EMO
Cheer it up... :))))


Joey,I was having a nice time singing with u too
Even though the time is short
But I felt satisfied
Forgive me for losing my voice
Due to the over-shouting ><


Zeying..
You went back earlier
Leaving me and joey there
Will deal with you afterwards XDDD


Crystal and Shihao
You're the best
Even though we didn't win
But you have tried your best
Fighting for our class :)))


Love you friends!!! XDD

Tuesday, 10 April 2012

Sorry and thanks :))))

After so many days
Or perhaps so many weeks
The result slips were finally distributed to everyone

There was some mistakes and my place in class dropped due to that a-very-trivial-mistake
Actually..
Firstly I received my slip
And couldn't believe that I have obtained such result
It was all out of my expectation
And..so..
I want to apologize to a friend
I chose to be honest 
Knowing that I should not have been too care over this
I am sincerely feeling sorry because I firstly thought that I did not deserve such place
But afterwards
I saw that you're so desperate to ask teacher to change the marks
And I realized that the most important wasn't the marks nor the grades nor the places
But the kindness and sincerity of yours
If really can't change 
It's okay and I would be happy to accept it
Seriously
You don't have to feel sorry or guilty 
You mustn't feel sorry and guilty!!! ><
The marks and grades are not important
So don't ever ever mention about it again
Or else I will feel very down and sad xp


Today..
The result was finally changed
Yet it was still out of our expectations lol==
Sorry again..
I didn't feel happy at all for getting such place
I hope next time we can get a better result together
This was just a monthly test
I believe that we can do better
You deserve a better place :)
All the best for us
Cheers!!XDD

Monday, 9 April 2012

Misery

Stress!!!!!
My dear Mister Exam is going to arrive soon :(
Flipped through few pages of biology reference book
I have no mood at all zzz
Closed it and threw it aside
Lying on my bed staring at the ceiling
Daydreaming...
And eventually ended up writing this post ><


Recently I have totally no idea what to write on blog
To prevent the spreading of spider webs
I have chosen to update
Sorry I am crapping and talking nonsense -_-


Haihhhhhhhhhhhh
It isn't your fault
It's entirely my wrong
Don't think too much and don't blame yourself
Because there's nothing to do with you
It's all my problem
But it's so hard to explain what is playing inside my mind
I am in misery
I really don't know what should I do
I know
I kept apologizing since few weeks ago
Saying sorry for no reasons
I also don't know what the hell is going on
But I'm sure that I'm not that worth for you to treat me like this
It's not worth at all...........

Monday, 2 April 2012

Auld Lang Syne :)

Should old acquaintance be forgot
And never brought to mind

Should old acquaintance be forgot
And auld lang syne


For auld lang syne my dear
For auld lang syne
We'll take a cup of kindness yet
For auld lang syne


And surely you'll buy your cup
And surely I'll buy mine
And we'll take a cup of kindness yet
For auld lang syne



For auld lang syne my dear
For auld lang syne
We'll take a cup of kindness yet
For auld lang syne



We two have run about the slopes
And picked the daisies fine
But we've wandered many weary foot
Since auld lang syne



For auld lang syne my dear
For auld lang syne
We'll take a cup of kindness yet
For auld lang syne


We two have paddled in the stream
From morning sun till night
But the seas between us broad have roared
For auld lang syne

Sunday, 1 April 2012

Tiring life

Awwww...
Feel so much comfortable after taking a shower


Seriously it was tiring 
Fatigue was attacking me 
Walking in such a extreme hot weather
The scorching sun was burning my hair!!!
Some more there are tonnes of homework waiting for me to do
They are drowning over me
Dizziness and laziness are killing me
Triumphing over my determination to keep my eyes open!!T^T


Pathetic...
Four days more I have to walk under the hot sun
Torturing..
I am dying tortured by the tiredness
Slept for so many hours last weekend
Thought that I have taken enough rest
But still the same
Tiredddddddddddd :(


Staring at my computer,handphone,ipad
Feel like want to throw them away
Knowing that they can't cheer me up
They will only drown me deeper and deeper 
Haizzzzzzzzzz
I nearly die suffocated
Due to the-never-ends homework


Now the only thing
I can do
I must do..
is forcing my eyes to open and settle all the dreadful homework
Dropping of eyelids is prohibited


P/S : I have already updated,satisfied???? ><

Monday, 19 March 2012

Dreadful exam

Errrrrrrrrr
The second day of nightmare had finally passed
Huhu~TT
I was very satisfied with my result
But to those who had not obtained good result

Don't be sad and down ><
Next time do it again
I believe that you will do it the best :)


The moment when we were taking our result
The time when we were anticipating our result
I had witnessed all the true characters or many people
Some couldn't accept their own marks
Some never care about their marks
Some were satisfied with their result
Some remained optimistic despite the not-so-good result they got
Some were still not satisfied even though they had already got high marks
For me,
I truly appreciated the marks I got
Because I deserve it but not other else


Seriously
I hate some people being soooooooooooo fake
Passing the exam with flying colours
Receiving high marks for every paper
But still kept on saying ownself ''going to fail''
You said it as if it's so simple
Is it an easy task to accept failure??
Guess it's definitely hard for you
You never experience failure
I'm pretty sure you will be easily defeated by failure in future zzz
And the most importantly and also the most annoying
There're some people who're damn f***ing fake
Can stop being such a hypocrite??
Is your target 200 or 300???

I was totally FED UP!!!= =|||


Anyway the 3 most dreadful subjects were left
Stay optimistic no matter how many marks you got!!!!:)
Good luck to all my friends XDD

Sunday, 18 March 2012

Let's sing!!!! :D

Today was a tiring day
Yet it was interesting
Despite the lame song we sang
But the progress was fun
Division of singing parts..
Arrangement of positions..


Last but not least
All the choir members were dismissed at around 4.45pm
After everyone had left 
There were only Yenjee,Joey and I stayed in the class
After yenjee had left
Only Joey and I were left
In order to kill times
We sang safe and sound for 30 minutes hahaha
Many students passed through and some even stopped to listen LOL =.=
But we just ignored it
And immersed in the melodiusly song

Seriously...
I will never get bored singing this song for a lifetime XDDD
Unfortunately the time flied

Half an hour had passed within a blink of eye :(
Hopefully we will have chance to sing duet during teachers' dayIt will be perfect singing with the pro ----> Joey hahax :P



I used to sing to regain my mood
I always sing to fill my free time
Singing has become part of my life

I enjoy my life singing :)

Tuesday, 13 March 2012

Errrrr?????? No comment :P

The person who never rectify your fault is not a true friend
The person who keeps on helping you blindly is not a true friend too
That person is the one who only play with your feelings


I could feel it
That we're getting farther and farther


那眼神真的好敷衍
也许是我太咄咄逼人了?
是时候醒目了
不要再天真了
昨天的一切终究是一场梦

Thursday, 8 March 2012

人生

读文章时读到一些有意义的句子,在此分享~


人人都是一片叶,萌生、吐翠、壮大、鲜艳、成熟,最后坠落人寰,“零落成泥碾做土”,至于能不能“香如故”,能不能留芳世间,须看造化与功底。成长虽然艰辛,但你一定能成长,没有什么能挡得住;逝去固然可叹,但你一定会逝去,同样也没有什么能挡得住。


上帝让我活着,我不敢轻易去死;上帝让我去死,我决不苟且地活着。


生如夏花之绚烂,死如秋叶之静美。争取绚烂的活法吧,不白活一回;享受静美的死法吧,不枉死一场


摘自:人人都是一片叶 - 张俊峰

Annoying rain

Hahah..
After one week I had lost communication with my blog
Feel there're lots of things to write and plenty of feelings to express here
My lovely bloggie~I miss you~XD

aaa-chuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!

Thinking of the incidents happened just now
I could only sigh ><

Flashback~

Walking happily on the road and humming some songs
The rain was slowly pouring down
Within seconds it turned to a heavy downpour
I halted my step and went into SMK St. Theresa and waited there
I was waiting for the rain to stop and praying sincerely hopefully the rain would at least become smaller
But it seemed futile
The rain is pouring heavier and heavier
I had lost my patience and ran out of the school like there's no tomorrow
Until I reached SP Plaza,I took a rest
Looked into the mirror of one car,my hair and clothes were all wet
What could I do was just ran and ran and ran
Thanks god I reached the bus station went onto the bus safely without washed away by the rain water XD
The temperature in the bus was extremely cool
Glancing at my skin
The hair are all standing firmly and proudly like soldiers 
Biting my lower lips
Shivering and almost freezed ><
After I reached my destination
Once again I was hitted by the heavy rain LOL
Finallyyyyy I arrived in front of my house
I heaved a huge sigh feeling relieved
But my body were trembling like leaf
I could no longer support my body weight and ended up lying on the floor
End of flashback


aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa-chuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!
I can feel Mr. Fever is coming to visit me soon
Mr. Antibodies please remember to defend!!!!XDD


It was definitely a terrifying yet unforgetable experience
Thanks god I am home now!!XD

Sad or happy?

Hooray!!!!!!!!!!!!
Let's cheer for our independence!!!XDDDD
Kinda exaggerate but the feeling is true
It felt like I'm free from enemies' control and conquer hahax
Yeaaaa books are my enemies =P
Huhuuuuuu
I am going to fly up to the sky and then up to universe

and live freely without any anxiety
hahaha I think I am crazy
( Slapping my head!! ) come back to reality la!! =.=

Hahahah I cant stop laughing
I had never felt so relieved
Even though it was just a small monthly test but don't know why I was so happy ><
Hmmmmm
Holidays is starting..
How am I going to spend???? ( Currently in the progress of planning XD )
Korean drama???
Computer games???
Movies???
I don't know :P
Depends on my mood hehe
Anyway..

I know such happiness will not last long
It's just temporary
Because we can never compete with the speed of time
Haizzzzzzzz
thinking of the next exam
It is like I'm struggling hard to survive in a dark gloomy miserable area
Feel like I can never find a way out
Should I be happy because the monthly test has ended or should I worry about the coming exams,my SPM,my future??? ><
God bless me~
Lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Fine let's forget about it ==||

Friday, 24 February 2012

...

To do list on 21/02/2012
Moral folio
- 4 tugasan harian
- kerja amal
- rumusan,profil pelajar,senarai kandungan,penghargaan
Bm karangan
Memorize bm lisan
Chinese essay ( not going to do )
Accounts
Addmath module
Sejarah module



To do list on 22/02/2012
Moral folio
- 3 tugasan harian
- kerja amal
- rumusan,profil pelajar,senarai kandungan,penghargaan
Bm karangan
Memorize bm lisan
Chinese essay ( not going to do )
Accounts
Addmath module
Sejarah module



To do list on 23/02/2012
Moral folio
- 2 tugasan harian
- kerja amal
- rumusan,profil pelajar,senarai kandungan,penghargaan
Bm karangan
Memorize bm lisan
Chinese essay ( not going to do )
Accounts
Addmath module
Sejarah module



To do list on 24/02/2012
Moral folio
- 1 tugasan harian
- kerja amal
- rumusan,profil pelajar,senarai kandungan,penghargaan
Bm karangan
Memorize bm lisan
Chinese essay ( not going to do )
Accounts
Addmath module
Sejarah module

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG What the heck!!
When am I going to finish these homework???T^T
And recently I was not paying attention in the class
Daydreaming and chit-chatting all the time
Wonder how am I going to take my SPM at the end of the year haizzzzzzzz

Tuesday, 21 February 2012

秘。密

也许 没有人会懂 更不再奢望有人去懂
希望它成为 心里那唯一不被揭开的秘密 
我们都不会懂  从来不曾懂
懵懵懂懂来到各自的世界
留下抹不去的记忆

或许根本没离开过
还是不想让这一点的关系散去
断开了的弦  
还能弹出美妙的旋律吗?
至少还能发出那一点声音
就算很沉 
但没消失过 

走过了前一段  有你的陪伴
下一段 迷路了
慌了 却只能寻找生存的理由
下一段 重逢了 
这一段 继续我们的旅途

这次的下一段  还会是我们吗?
没人懂 就像我永远都不想要去懂 
这个答案 

感谢是个词
对不起是个形式 
再多的对不起  换不回那一个原谅 
心中原谅了吗? 
再多的谢谢 换不回那一些付出
真的谢谢吗? 

习惯了那些我曾不想习惯的习惯
莫名的改变了自己的想法
莫名的做了不曾做的事
莫名的把自己变得让人认不清
我喜欢自己习惯了的习惯

每个人心中 有那一个 永远不懂 的 秘密 


不想懂的秘密

Monday, 20 February 2012

hehe :)

"Hello mummy,today can come and fetch me at 1.30pm??"

"Yes can arh.."

Yeahhh I was happy because they could again fetch me back
After accounts period
I was rushing back because I was scared I might delay their time to the airport
Yes they were going Seoul for vacation=___________=
And now I think they are at KL Airport
LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
Sitting in the car..
Staring at road blankly..
The white line on the road was passing as if the time was flowing away fastly
Because i cannot see my parents anymore until next Sunday

Looking at the road
The scene reappeared in my mind
Yesterday I was on my way home on a bus
I was curious because I saw quite a lot of people gathered around on the road
I lifted the curtain up
And guess what I have seen??
BLOOD!!!! =.=
It was definitely an accident but not a serious one lol
Thanks god because the motor driver was wearing helmet
Only some parts of his face were hurt and bleeding
It was so damn scary
If it were a fatal one
I think I might have fainted ><

After getting down from the bus
I was relieved
And kept murmuring
Appreciating the God because I was able to reach home safely
Thanks God and hopefully everyone on Earth can always be safe and free from any road accidents :)

Wednesday, 15 February 2012

Hard

Trying hard to turn away my head and close my ears
But there is no way I could turn away my eyes

Trying hard not to care about it
But it is sooooo irresistable

Trying hard to escape
But it is still futile

Trying hard to convince myself
But it does not help

Trying hard to stop the crying
But it is flowing out endlessly

Trying hard to believe
But again and again hurting myself

Trying hard to distract myself from you
But my attention on you is gaining by days

Trying hard to empty my mind
But your face keep appearing

Trying hard to get your attention
But I am always transparent

Trying hard to fulfill your requirements
But it is difficult to accomplish

Trying hard to cure diseases
But the fees are usually exorbitant

Trying hard to get rid of hunger
But end up starving eventually

Trying hard to get a peaceful sleep
But insomnia is attacking every night

Trying hard to search for happiness
But life is always full of depression and anxiety

Trying hard to forget everything
But it is definitely impossible

There are endless of difficulties in lives
Life is getting harder and harder for people nowadays
Demands and wanting are increasing
And the world is getting more difficult to fulfill all our needs
Wondering how are the people surviving in future??
Hard...

Wednesday, 8 February 2012

Abnormality

Valentines Day is just around the corner
This is the day which all the couples in the world anticipate
This day can be full of surprises
But these all only belong to those who are coupling
For those who are single ( include me for sure XD )
We can also live the day interestingly
It seriously depends on how we think
For those who are still single
Do not worry 
You will surely meet your soulmate someday 
Must have patience =P
Went to Penang yesterday
I had had a lot of funs there with my family
Strolling around the shopping mall
Saw a lot of couples ><
And this made me think of something very disgusting
According to others' opinions
Guys who are gay are nice-looking,handsome blaaaaa 
but everyday i walk to bus station
Sometimes I see some people who have abnormal sexual preferance 
Maily consists of foreign workers
I was like irritated
Wanna find a place to vomit
Not that I want to criticize them 
But it's really disgusting enough to see
Their attire,their walking style and so on
Sometimes there are lots of people sharing such things on Facebook
And they are deeply in love with each other
We couldn't do anything
Not that I'm against gays
I just couldn't stand being in such atmosphere
Hopefully I won't meet such people again  ><||
Or else I am afraid that I will lose appetite for the entire day zzzzzzzzzz

Lolzzzzzz XD

Friday, 3 February 2012

What The F***

LOL
Sore throat until now
I have already endured for few days
I was like a huge water tank
Keep on filling myself with water
But still it couldn't help
Yes today when I woke up
I was relieved when I felt no more pain in my throat
Then I took a lot of courage
Trying to speak a word
But there was no sound coming out
And I was like booooooooooo T^T
Drank lots of water since early in the morning
I couldn't resist myself from singing
Everytime when I was trying to sing a note
There was no normal voice coming out
One word ---> FRUSTATED
The feeling was like no one could ever understand me
And it was kind of down and depressed =(
Until now
I still can't talk properly
What the hell!!
How I wish I were a clock
I can turn back to the past and forward to the future
When you are staring at the clock and the time passes damn slowly
And you turn away and glance back at the clock
The needle of the clock is still there remains unchanged
The time is always crawling when you are bored
But when you need time
It is always flying
Nobody in this world could ever compete with time
The only thing I want to do now is forward the time so that I can get rid of the pain in my throat
Suddenly feel no mood to attend Dhaya's party
What a stupid me
Today I was strolling around Central Square
Passing by a lot of shops
But how dare I forgot about her birthday present
Shit,blame me for being forgetful!><

Hmmmm....

My life is so boring and miserable
It's all of a sudden
I don't know why my mind and heart reacted like this ><
What the damn shitty feeling is this zzz
I couldn't figure it out
Chose to ignore it
Or maybe I am able to get rid of it someday
Today went to arena biology tuition
The teacher taught us the structure and the function of heart
We learned that heart is to receive blood from lungs and pump blood to the body
The content of the heart is only oxygenated blood and deoxygenated blood
Nothing more ...
Can somebody tell me which chamber of heart stores these stupid feelings??
I want to clear everything inside it ><
Sometimes it doesn't feel anything
but sometimes i will feel heart pain
as if there is something squeezing or stretching my heart
Haizzzzzzz
I have only one question to ask
Can I die now??? T^T
I'm dying hiding such feeling
It isn't an easy task to pretend in front of everyone
Especially you =(
Couldn't predict when my heart will jump out from my chest
Until that day..
I am not able to survive anymore
And everything inside my heart will be revealed
And there comes a big disaster ><
== THE END ==

Hahaha this post is so emo and depressing huh??
Didn't know where my inspiration came from
Just wanna write something
Feel much more comfortable after spilling out XDDD

Sunday, 22 January 2012

Pitiful =')

Haihhhh
It's a new year after all
And I will never act like a kid anymore
you thought i were you?? ==||
I can't deny that you are still act and think childishly
And I will not argue with you
You thought you have made me angry and irritated successfully
In fact you are wrong
You are not worth to become my friend
Therefore
I have no feel at all hehe XP
Whatever you want to say
whatever you want to do
I will never care
And hopefully you can get rid of your foolish thinking
If you want to continue like this
It's your problem
You thought you have won
But actually you have lost
As if you have strived hard to fight but your opponent just simply give up
This means that you have only triumphed over yourself
nothing more :D
You happy for nothing
Because of your immature mind
It's kinda pitiful =')
God bless you~
I have realized that there's no use to continue this war
AND I WILL NEVER GIVE YOU A CHANCE TO BEAT ME 
That's all XD

Wednesday, 18 January 2012

Lame Thingssssss

Sad laaaaa
Chinese New Year is just around the corner
I hate holidays
Especiall during such festival
Have to help family do a lot of things
It's going to be a tiring CNY ><
Not fun at all
Homework many like hell
And my mood is miserable
What the hell is going on with me???
Fine,let's forget about it ==||


And I love choir!!XDDD
I love to sing
It feels so good
For me,singing is a method of releasing tension
And it's is so damn effective
Why don't you try it ??? XP


Recently
I always get teased and laughed
Don't know why
As if I'm a clown
Especially YOU!!!!
What the hell is so funny with my face???
Stop laughing!!!!


Hahaha
Feels more comfortable after spilling out all these
I know it's boring
Please don't get mad at me if you feel it's wasting your time after you read this post XDDDD

Thursday, 12 January 2012

Forgiveness

Haizzzz
What to do
I don't want to angry at you
I feel tired
really exhausted
nearly die ><
Fine I will try to be forgiving
But...
Forgiving is not forgetting,it's just letting go of hurt
I will never forget what have you done
For sake of myself,I have chosen to forgive :)
Every human has their evil side
The side which they are selfish
without bothering others' feelings
I think me too
Nobody is perfect
Sorry if i done anything wrong
Such humanity can be found everywhere
and there's nothing to be surprised
Maybe this is what we have to face in future
If we can't even endure a single thing which causes a lot of annoyance
How are we going to survive in future
So the conclusion is to ignore it
stand firmly at my own
without getting influence by others
I promise to myself
I will try to control my emotions
I will never ever lose my temper so easily
And I'm sick and tired of fighting with anyone
So let's forget everything
Forget all the sad and unhappy things
living a happier life


I have to forgive people,not because they deserve it,but I'm the one who deserve to be free of them =)