Frustated

Why??
Why it happened again and again??
To be truthful,
You have ruined my life
Seeing me so down now
Happy??
The feel of betrayal
Disappointed..
Maybe..
I couldn't face myself
I didn't hold the shield properly
I let myself shot by you again and again
Although it's not something serious
But it's so harmful
The hurt is so deep and painful
Or..
Perhaps it's my own fault
I shouldn't have trusted you
again and again
It's the most terrible mistake I had ever done
The thing I care isn't the hurt you have brought
But the reason..
Why couldn't you tell me??
I am demanding for the reason
Hopefully you can tell me someday
According to what I said and heard,
Scorpion always think negatively
Truly and sincerely
I hope that all the above are not true
Fine
I am currently not in good mood
So that's all