I hate myself

Well trying my best to control myself,
not to think of the past,
not to hurt my friends,
and not to write emo posts
I did not know what's wrong with me today,
I hate myself
for being so rude to my them,
and i just couldn't control my emotion
Why'd this happened??
I think maybe i know,
And i just need to be alone
I feel everything bad keep coming to me
Damn it!!
Just couldn't forgive myself for being soooo mean!!
I shouldn't have said out such hurtful words
I didn't know whether they can understand me or not
but the thing is i couldn't even forgive myself
The incident kept haunting my mind
Sigh
After taking 2-hour sleep
I feel I was better a lot
And the fire was finally put out
Everything back to normal
But i didn't know how to face them tomorrow
I've done such a big mistake
Regretted i said it out without second thought...
I hate myself...

P/S : Couldn't resist myself from writing emo posts ( Joey perhaps you're right )