Friday, 22 April 2016

STOP BULLFIGHTING

One of the most unforgettable experience I had in Spain was in a bull ring in Madrid.
It was the most regretful decision we had ever made.
So before watching the bullfight, we were all filled with excitement and I was imagining a person 'playing' with a bull with a red cloth.
And therefore we entered the ring without knowing anything about a bullfight.
It was about 4.30pm and the sun was scorching hot.
As the bull came in, everyone cheered and there were a few people(i have no idea what are they called) swinging their pink cape to attract/agitate/distract? the bull and I had no idea what was happening.
Okay so after that here came the matador with is red cape trying to 'play around' with the bull.
I was quite terrified because it seemed the bull was going to poke him anytime.
And yes the bull successfully hit the matador once and thank god nothing serious happened.
(Sorry if I am talking too much nonsense)
Now I am going to tell the part where my heart was crushed into pieces.
After some time I was still stupidly staring without knowing what was going on until a person called banderillero came.
He was holding two 'banderillas' which are two colourful sticks with barbed points at the end.(based on what I saw) His job was to place the sticks while running as close as possible to the bull.
According to what I saw, the hook at the end of the sticks stuck at the back of the bull.
It was obvious that the blood was dripping from the back of the bull while it's still running.
There were a total of  6 sticks hanging at the back of the bull in the end.
Before I forget, there was a picador riding a horse at one side of the ring. Sometimes the bull would attack the horse and the picador would repeatedly stab the bull's neck with barbed lances to get rid of it.
In the very end, the bull collapsed after so much torture and it was dragged away by four horses, again with hooks.
I could not believe that people actually watch this for entertainment. We were so 'depressed' and left the ring after two rounds. Typically six bulls are killed per show.
So we did some googling and found out that the bull was no longer a healthy one before entering the ring. The bull is usually locked in a dark stable for two days. They shave down his horns to confuse spatial awareness, rub Vaseline into his eyes to blur his vision, and often severe the tendons on the back of his neck to prevent him from lifting up his head.
Sometimes they stuff wet newspapers into his ears cotton wool into his nostrils, stick needles into his genitals, and rub strong caustic sodas into his legs, which throws him off balance. All these are to weaken and disorientate the bull.
When he senses light, he rushes towards the light thinking that there is still a slight hope of life. But, in fact the place he is heading to is the place that is going to kill him.
To everyone who read this post, please do not ever go for it if you still have a heart. I truly hope this will be banned to save million of bulls. *sobs*

Saturday, 6 February 2016

L.I.F.E

CNY is now like finally!
But this year is going to be the first year that I am not going to celebrate it at home.
Luckily I have a bunch of friends who make me feel warm 6500 miles away from home. I can't be more grateful to have all of you.
When people are stepping into the world of work they rarely go back home and I start to wonder if I can go home every year to celebrate CNY after this.
To be honest I am afraid that there is one day I am used to this kind of study/working life and no longer anticipate the celebration of CNY with family.
People tend to forget about their parents when they are too busy with their lives far away from their hometown. Will there be such a day when I become one of them? Hopefully not.

Time really flies.
If only I could rewind the clock and make the time stop. Fine that's ridiculous.
A friend of the same age as me came and talked to me yesterday.
She was so stressed out about her applications for internships in the companies in the UK.
Out of dozens companies she has just gotten two positive replies.
Although I can still enjoy at the moment but I know another kind of life is awaiting me : writing CVs, applying for work, attending interviews, worrying about life etc.
Sometime I am really frustated at myself.
I always tell myself that I should find some aim in life(at least know what I want to do in the future) but at the end of the day I will just be in bed playing with my phone. 
My life has been too easy since forever, it went too smoothly and this makes me feel anxious.
I envy when people achieving their dreams at my age.
I envy my sister who is already earning an income by herself while studying.
I want to do something different and not merely work for my entire life and retire, at least make some contributions to the society.

After saying so much, I am still so clueless. *shaking head*

Monday, 16 November 2015

世界变了

最近的巴黎事件搞得人心惶惶
一想到那些家破人亡的人们真是可怜
其实我心里最讨厌人类了
为什么人们不能够过自己的日子
却要来打搅别人平静的生活
为什么为什么为什么!
我只想做个简单的人
不想有任何心机
可是事情往往不是那么的如意
你对别人好人家未必对你好
经过背包在伦敦被偷事件后
我再也不想做个简单的人了
是我太蠢 把人类想得太善良了
有一个朋友时常告诉我
叫我头脑不要那么简单
要不然吃亏的是自己
现在的我也这么想了
防人之心不可无
人类丑恶的一面真的好可怕

现在的我一直告诉自己一定要坚持住
这将会是我一个很好的人生教训还有经验
我会好好珍惜它
还有就是那些在我遇到困难时不断伸出援手的朋友们
是你们让我可以那么正面地克服这次的难关
谢谢你们!

Monday, 29 June 2015

What I really want :)

I remember it was a Tuesday morning, 8.17 a.m.
I grabbed my phone on the table near me and my eyes were half opened.
What I expected turned out to be unexpected.
Scrolling through my emails, I saw an email from University of California, Santa Barbara(UCSB)
I received a conditional offer from UCSB!
I refrained myself from screaming because my roommate was still sleeping so peacefully.
Feeling shocked and surprised, I screamed in my heart because my hard work was finally paid off.
From that day onward, I decided to pursue my degree of Actuarial Science in the U.S.
On the other hand, I have got conditional offers from University College London (UCL), and University of Manchester as well.
LSE rejected me and I was quite down because it seemed to be hopeless for me to go to the U.K.
U.K has always been the place I wanted to go because I really want to experience the culture and the lifestyles there and to travel around EU countries.
Friends around me kept on telling I can enjoy the "university life" there because it's California and my school was a famous party school, UCSB a.k.a University of Casual Sex and Beer.
I was terrified at that moment and one friend pat my shoulders and told me that all the universities are the same.
However, my heart seemed to oppose my decision. 
I wasn't really happy of heading to the U.S.
To be honest, I always tried to google something good about UCL to convince myself that UCL is actually better than UCSB so that I can really have excuse to go to the U.K instead of the U.S but I failed to do so.
In terms of credits and qualifications, UCSB is better.
Until last week, I decided to go to the U.K because that has been my dream from the very beginning.
Deep from my heart, I could always hear a voice calling me not to go to the U.S.
I am going to the University of Manchester, which is a better school compared to UCSB in terms of credits and exemptions, duration of study and costs.
After all, I realised that there are a lot of challenges, distractions and dilemmas in the journey of chasing dreams.
Sometimes we should really find a quiet place and think. Ask yourself what do you really want and be brave enough to go and pursue it.

大家都长大了 :)

时间过得真快
没想到多3个月就要出国了
在这两年的college life里
确实学到了也看清了许多东西
这两年过得还算是无忧无虑
除了读书整天吃喝玩乐
也认识了来自大马各个角落的朋友
一种米吃出百种人
在这两年里有着许多过客
有的一开始就来了,不久就离开了
有的一开始来了,始终都没离开过
有些迟来的离开了
也有些迟来的,目前还在
总觉得人就是这样
一开始的时候不懂得珍惜
到了要分开之时才来哭哭啼啼(当然包括我自己)
虽说如此可是彼此之间的友谊将永远牢固
我也理解到一段真挚的友情不只是欢乐和笑声
其中也必定有着许多争执和不愉快
但是人与人之间就是这样
在一起生活有所不满也在所难免
最重要是要懂得去包容还有接受彼此之间的缺点
离开大家的生活也已经过了两个星期
大家都在计划着一起去旅游
虽说一起去游玩是很享受很值得期待
但是整个行程的规划一点都不简单
其中也有一些意见分歧闹得不愉快
我不懂在未来的时日会发生什么事
我会去珍惜现在的每一刻
不要到时候又来后悔
现在看着周围的朋友,又看回去当初的自己和朋友们
觉得我们又长大了那么一点

Wednesday, 25 June 2014

E.M.O

不知道为什么突然看回以前的post
觉得以前的自己好幼稚
有一些开心的回忆
也有伤心的
甚至还有一些我忘了是什么事情
总觉得现在的我都只会写一些感慨的post
真想念从前和朋友们一起的时刻
可是人生就是由那么多的起起落落、悲欢离合
总不可能一辈子和朋友呆在一起吧

Tuesday, 24 June 2014

什么都不要想!

多一个星期又要开学了
又要回到每天烦三餐的日子
最近整个人都开朗了
暂时都把一切烦恼放下
轻松的日子过久了
很不想回去上课
如果我可以都每天懒洋洋的躺着
不愁吃喝
那该有多好
可是现实毕竟还是现实
那样的生活只在梦中出现
要赶快整理心情准备返回KL咯!

Monday, 9 June 2014

X-Men Days Of Future Past

After 2 weeks of the release of X-Men Day Of The Future Past ( DOFP )
I finally managed to watch it yay!
The kind of satisfaction that others wont know!! XDXD
Seriously I am so into genes mutation
I love all those mutants from X-Men because of their special power
( I wish I were one of them >< )
My favourite mutants are Mystique ( Raven Darkholme ) and Professor X ( Charles Xavier )

Mystique which is played by Jennifer Lawrence!!!
She can turn into anyone she wishes and it is so cool ><


Charles Xavier a.k.a Professor X
He could read human's mind and no one can ever escape from his mind reading power.











Erik Magnus Lensherr a.k.a Magneto
He is able to control all the metals surroundings. ( Magnetism manipulation )
















X-Men DOFP is all about going back to the past to change the history.
There was one bitchy guy,namely Bolivar Trask who created Sentinels ( robots to kill mutants ).Trask experimented on mutants for their DNA to create these Sentinels whose sole purpose is to track and kill mutants. Among those he experimented on and killed were Azazel, Angel, Emma Frost, Banshee, and Riptide, although Mystique was able to save Havok, Toad, and Ink from this fate. Mystique sought revenge on Trask for killing her comrades. However, this would lead to an apocalyptic future; When Mystique shoots Trask in the head, this triggers the awakening of the sentinels, because of Trask being killed by a mutant and because of Mystique being experimented on for her DNA to complete the sentinels. The sentinels would then bring about an apocalyptic future. For this reason Wolverine was sent back in time to prevent Trask's death.

These are some favourite mutants of mine I would like to introduce!
Emma Frost a.k.a The White Queen has the ability of telepathy. She can control minds and alter memories. When she turns into diamond form, she has an amazingly high level of physical strength and almost-limitless stamina.












Bobby Drake a.k.a Iceman. I like his power which is known as cryokineses. He possesses this kind of ability to generate ice and snow from his body as well as manipulate it. He used this ability to freeze various things. One word ----- WOW! XD
Ororo Munroe a.k.a Storm is a powerful mutant who has the power of atmokinesis. She is able to control the weather and all of its forms with ease. She can easily control meteorological tempests, such as lightning, thunderstorms, hurricanes, blizzards, tornadoes and even mist. With the power of wind, Storm is even able to fly by making the wind lift her up in the air.
Peter Maximoff a.k.a Quicksilver. He has a super speed. I remember there was a scene that he stopped all the bullets shot by the cops when he was trying to save Magneto from the prison below the Pentagon. There was also another scene where he placed his extremely high speed and frequency hands on the glass which trapped Magneto. As a result of resonance, all the glass broke into pieces and Magneto finally escaped!
Logan a.k.a The Wolverine. His signature power is of course his claws. The other ability that amazed me is his regenerative healing factors in his body. He can completely heal a various wounds within seconds and slow down his aging process. He was the one sent back to the past due to his semi-immortality and only him had the physical strength to do so.

The mutants above are my favourite ones and there are a lot more which are awesome as well! Most of them died terribly in the future because Sentinels could adapt to all their powers and killed them in the end. In the past where the Wolverine was sent back to, Magneto wanted to control everything by trying to kill the humans including president Nixon but fortunately Mystique appeared to stop this murder.

After saving the president from being killed by Magneto, Mystique tried to kill Trask, but Charles Xavier convinced her not to, in order to prevent the bad future. In the end, Mystique which is a mutant saved the president, therefore the sentinel program was shut down, and Trask was later arrested for selling military secrets. Finally the history were successfully changed and the horrifying future is no longer existed.

Sunday, 8 June 2014

久违的一个post XD

松懈的日子过久了真的很惨
全都怪AS考试时间表
把Physics Paper 1 排在其他科目的3个星期后
现在还要特地回来
为的全都是这张paper
读书的心情全没了
还有两天就要考这最后一张了
这个学期真的过的再也平凡不过了
再也没有到处玩
发生了一些事情
所以沉淀了很多
还有最讨人厌的考试
希望这几天快点过去
我又可以回家享受生活了
也不用每天为三餐而烦
看开点
又要开始另一个3个星期假期耶!

Thursday, 19 December 2013

A knot tied for 2013 :)

After 8 months of rusting,
I finally managed to write blog again
2 years ago, I created this blog
Haiz it had been 2 years,
time really flies
I miss my old life and old friends













I miss you guys and SMKI,Chinese society,couldn't believe that 2 years ago I looked so ... @@












This was taken when I was in Form 4 hee :D

















And now I am studying A level in Taylor's College
I managed to make a lot of new awesome friends as well
These are the loveliest buddies I have ever had since I came to KL















These are my genius housemates, Im glad that fate brought us altogether, I appreciate all the fun time and memories I had had with you guys in the first semester, I hope that we will have more and more memories in future,friendship forever! :D












The current me,no much difference with the two-year-ago me huh? XDXD

















I have too much to say, I want to thank god for giving me such a memorable and meaningful semester, I sincerely hope that all of us are able to strive for excellence in our exams.
2013 is coming to an end and when the brand new year of 2014 comes,I wish that our friendship goes deeper and strengthens.

P/S : This post will be bottomless if I keep going on and on,jiayou engkheng and everyone I know on Earth! :)

Friday, 5 April 2013

无限的无奈

从以前到现在
一直都在拼着考好成绩
为的就是可以拿到助学金
这样爸爸就不用就不用背着大大的负担供我读书
结果SPM成绩考的还算不错
也拿到了JPA提供的BURSARY
可是现在又开始在烦了
现在没在槟城读书了,
好舍不得那边的朋友们
一心想在哪里找工作
才可以继续呆在那边

真的很烦
也很矛盾
现在必须找人替代我租的房间
或是在那边工作到6月
可以的话
我想跟那边的朋友们一起下去KL读书haizzz

虽然Penang Inti College 规模不大
可是我很高兴认识到这几位朋友还有我的室友
很多时候我都跟着室友出去兜
认识到他们不少朋友
我觉得我被当成弟弟看待
可是我十分珍惜这一切
因为我一直梦想有哥哥和姐姐
现在却多出这样多哥哥姐姐
感觉真的不错哈哈
认识了他们
我学习到怎样去享受生活
也接触到除了读书以外的东西

还有就是我A level 的朋友们
没有你们的话
我应该会闷死吧哈哈
也因为有了你们
我除了一直玩以外还会懂得安排时间读书
我真的十分感谢上帝给我一个这样的生活

这3个月我过得十分开心也十分充实
虽然我即将离开
可是我永远不会忘记你们
因为你们为我的生活添了不少色彩

我会想念你们的!:(

Thursday, 28 February 2013

无题

人就这么一辈子,
开心是一天,不开心也是一天,
所以你要开心;
人就这么一辈子,
做错事不可以重来,碎了的心难再愈合
所以你不能事后后悔;
人就这么一辈子,
过了今天,就不会再有另一个今天,
一分一秒都不再回头,
所以要珍惜每分每秒

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~精句~
风光的背后不是沧桑,
就是肮脏。

有钱要懂得假装,
没钱要懂得包装。

不同傻子争辩,
否则搞不清谁是傻子。

在别人生活里跑龙套,
不如精彩做自己。

被恨的人没有痛苦,
去恨人却是伤痕累累。

贪婪是最真实的平穷,
满足是最真实的财富!

Monday, 31 December 2012

The last post of 2012

95 minutes to go...
It's gonna be another year -- 2013
It's a very very different year
which is a brand new year that is going to be filled with new experiences
Tomorrow is gonna be the last outing with friends,perhaps
Enjoy every moments left
Thank you all the friends and people who appeared in my life
Let bygones be bygones
Everything is going to become past after 12am tonight
Let's forget all the sad memories
Happy New Year Eve!!! 

Sunday, 16 December 2012

多几天...

再过多几天就要上云顶了
这个假期没什么特别
跟以往的没什么分别
可是心情却是非笔墨所能形容的无奈
开学后再也看不到老朋友
多几天
我就要到大学去
必须要自己独立
现在的我深怕自己没办法适应
虽然有时很期待
可是害怕和紧张总是会有的
不知道大学的生活怎样
无论如何
我只能希望像我想象那样的自由自在
我知道有很多朋友还想要休息多几个月
可是不懂我为什么那么赶着上大学
可能是怕呆在家无所事事吧XD
再过多几天
我即将展开新的人生
走上新的道路
剩下的这几天
已经渐渐地被耗尽
祝一月升学的朋友们一切顺顺利利
也祝其他朋友们假期快乐
加油 :)

Monday, 26 November 2012

无题 LOL

中学生涯剩没几天
应该开开心心过完剩下的这几天
接下去的日子都不懂会是怎样
感觉上好像在海上漂浮的一艘船
毫无方向
不管了
总而言之拼完这几天就是了
生物学试卷,请你明天对我好一点><
加油!!!

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

坦然面对 :)

兜了一个那么大的圈
始终回到了原点

Thursday, 20 September 2012

给“过客”的一封信

真为你感到开心
折腾了两年
结果还是返回原点
之前的一切就好像一场梦
令人难以置信
就算是一场梦
我也很感恩了
毕业后
我们就都自由了
虽然感到无奈
心里还是有那么一点点期待
无法想象往后的日子真么过
更无法想象大学和工作的生活
看到现在的你
我真的很开心
在这短短的两年里
你变了许多
也开朗了许多
这样
至少我不会感到那么愧疚
可以看得出你的成绩也进步了
恭喜你 XD
好好加油吧
今年你的生日我没有送你任何东西
不懂你还记不记得你说过的
一份礼物的意义并不是外表有多华丽
也不是价钱标的数位有几多
所以我不送
(把这些话都还给你 XD )
你每一封信
每一句鼓励的话
我都不会忘记
最后再次祝你生日快乐
永远快乐 :)

无奈

时间过得很快
转眼间预考也过了
成绩也都拿得七七八八了
接下来也就是中学生涯最大也是最后的挑战了
压力越来越大了
真希望我永远是个长不大的孩子
天空灰灰的
好像正在向我表示对我的同情
突然心情感觉很沉重
就好像天上的乌云
这几天天气阴晴不定
是不是代表着世界末日的莅临
没人知晓
最近迷失了自己
被预考成绩搞到头脑快要爆炸了
以为预考完了可以休息
哪里知道最近学校的人手中都拿着参考书到处走
千万不要有太大的期望
要不然失望会更大
只要做好自己的本分就好了
反正拼也是最后一次了
再也无法挣分数
再不满意也只能接受
今天分的最后一科 —— 物理学让我大失所望
结果朋友们在开心唱歌的当儿
我却不断在翻考卷
翻到最后还不是一样改变不了事实
早知道就去唱个痛快
算了吧
无论如何
拼了!!
朋友们你们也加油!!

Friday, 3 August 2012

Sigh

Opening my history textbook
Felt like dozing off
Lifting the book to my bed
Putting it aside
And starting to mumble about the lame facts
Eyelids turning heavier
I was slowly drifted to dreamland


After one hour
My handphone rang
Saw nothing but a strange yet weird number
Felt anxious yet anticipated
As what I expected
It was from Inti college


''Is this Eng Kheng?" asked from a soft lady voice
Didn't know why but her voice sounded warm and comforting LOL
I was totally sobered up


Enquired a lot about American Degree Transfer Programme ( ADTP )
If I am to take this pathway
I do not have to study Foundation,straight to Degree


Next Saturday is Inti college university open day
Want to go and ask for more information
The only problem is my parents' schedule
Their work are endless
It's definitely impossible for them to bring me to the college


After a few minutes
I still blurred
I wanted to know the approximate price for the entire course


Unless I obtain JPA
otherwise my parents have to spend their money
And the cost isn't cheap ><


Back to history textbook
A lot else to complete
*FAINTING*

Tuesday, 31 July 2012

Dilemma

本来打算不要再写部落格了
可是今天突然心血来潮
上个星期四查到自己入选国名服务后
我的心情就一直很不好
可是我不得不把心情调好
因为SPM才是最重要的
一天一天的过去
我也不再去多想

刚才放学回到家
我问了妈妈关于UCSI University
她说她帮我问了
3年补习费都已经有四十多千
一月就可以进去修读了
一来可以不用去国民服务
二来可以不用读政府学院
可是我还是犹豫不决
因为总以前到现在
我就不想要用他们的钱
虽然如此
我还是会考虑@@

上次很多私人大学来到学校
我问了其中一所关于政府大学
那位小姐说matrikulasi不受世界承认
可是今天又有朋友说政府大学很好
可以申请很多东西
搞到我不懂怎么做选择

不管怎样
最重要要先把成绩搞好
预考和大马文凭考试
加油!!
朋友们也一起加油XDD