Friday 22 April 2016

STOP BULLFIGHTING

One of the most unforgettable experience I had in Spain was in a bull ring in Madrid.
It was the most regretful decision we had ever made.
So before watching the bullfight, we were all filled with excitement and I was imagining a person 'playing' with a bull with a red cloth.
And therefore we entered the ring without knowing anything about a bullfight.
It was about 4.30pm and the sun was scorching hot.
As the bull came in, everyone cheered and there were a few people(i have no idea what are they called) swinging their pink cape to attract/agitate/distract? the bull and I had no idea what was happening.
Okay so after that here came the matador with is red cape trying to 'play around' with the bull.
I was quite terrified because it seemed the bull was going to poke him anytime.
And yes the bull successfully hit the matador once and thank god nothing serious happened.
(Sorry if I am talking too much nonsense)
Now I am going to tell the part where my heart was crushed into pieces.
After some time I was still stupidly staring without knowing what was going on until a person called banderillero came.
He was holding two 'banderillas' which are two colourful sticks with barbed points at the end.(based on what I saw) His job was to place the sticks while running as close as possible to the bull.
According to what I saw, the hook at the end of the sticks stuck at the back of the bull.
It was obvious that the blood was dripping from the back of the bull while it's still running.
There were a total of  6 sticks hanging at the back of the bull in the end.
Before I forget, there was a picador riding a horse at one side of the ring. Sometimes the bull would attack the horse and the picador would repeatedly stab the bull's neck with barbed lances to get rid of it.
In the very end, the bull collapsed after so much torture and it was dragged away by four horses, again with hooks.
I could not believe that people actually watch this for entertainment. We were so 'depressed' and left the ring after two rounds. Typically six bulls are killed per show.
So we did some googling and found out that the bull was no longer a healthy one before entering the ring. The bull is usually locked in a dark stable for two days. They shave down his horns to confuse spatial awareness, rub Vaseline into his eyes to blur his vision, and often severe the tendons on the back of his neck to prevent him from lifting up his head.
Sometimes they stuff wet newspapers into his ears cotton wool into his nostrils, stick needles into his genitals, and rub strong caustic sodas into his legs, which throws him off balance. All these are to weaken and disorientate the bull.
When he senses light, he rushes towards the light thinking that there is still a slight hope of life. But, in fact the place he is heading to is the place that is going to kill him.
To everyone who read this post, please do not ever go for it if you still have a heart. I truly hope this will be banned to save million of bulls. *sobs*

Saturday 6 February 2016

L.I.F.E

CNY is now like finally!
But this year is going to be the first year that I am not going to celebrate it at home.
Luckily I have a bunch of friends who make me feel warm 6500 miles away from home. I can't be more grateful to have all of you.
When people are stepping into the world of work they rarely go back home and I start to wonder if I can go home every year to celebrate CNY after this.
To be honest I am afraid that there is one day I am used to this kind of study/working life and no longer anticipate the celebration of CNY with family.
People tend to forget about their parents when they are too busy with their lives far away from their hometown. Will there be such a day when I become one of them? Hopefully not.

Time really flies.
If only I could rewind the clock and make the time stop. Fine that's ridiculous.
A friend of the same age as me came and talked to me yesterday.
She was so stressed out about her applications for internships in the companies in the UK.
Out of dozens companies she has just gotten two positive replies.
Although I can still enjoy at the moment but I know another kind of life is awaiting me : writing CVs, applying for work, attending interviews, worrying about life etc.
Sometime I am really frustated at myself.
I always tell myself that I should find some aim in life(at least know what I want to do in the future) but at the end of the day I will just be in bed playing with my phone. 
My life has been too easy since forever, it went too smoothly and this makes me feel anxious.
I envy when people achieving their dreams at my age.
I envy my sister who is already earning an income by herself while studying.
I want to do something different and not merely work for my entire life and retire, at least make some contributions to the society.

After saying so much, I am still so clueless. *shaking head*

Monday 16 November 2015

世界变了

最近的巴黎事件搞得人心惶惶
一想到那些家破人亡的人们真是可怜
其实我心里最讨厌人类了
为什么人们不能够过自己的日子
却要来打搅别人平静的生活
为什么为什么为什么!
我只想做个简单的人
不想有任何心机
可是事情往往不是那么的如意
你对别人好人家未必对你好
经过背包在伦敦被偷事件后
我再也不想做个简单的人了
是我太蠢 把人类想得太善良了
有一个朋友时常告诉我
叫我头脑不要那么简单
要不然吃亏的是自己
现在的我也这么想了
防人之心不可无
人类丑恶的一面真的好可怕

现在的我一直告诉自己一定要坚持住
这将会是我一个很好的人生教训还有经验
我会好好珍惜它
还有就是那些在我遇到困难时不断伸出援手的朋友们
是你们让我可以那么正面地克服这次的难关
谢谢你们!

Monday 29 June 2015

What I really want :)

I remember it was a Tuesday morning, 8.17 a.m.
I grabbed my phone on the table near me and my eyes were half opened.
What I expected turned out to be unexpected.
Scrolling through my emails, I saw an email from University of California, Santa Barbara(UCSB)
I received a conditional offer from UCSB!
I refrained myself from screaming because my roommate was still sleeping so peacefully.
Feeling shocked and surprised, I screamed in my heart because my hard work was finally paid off.
From that day onward, I decided to pursue my degree of Actuarial Science in the U.S.
On the other hand, I have got conditional offers from University College London (UCL), and University of Manchester as well.
LSE rejected me and I was quite down because it seemed to be hopeless for me to go to the U.K.
U.K has always been the place I wanted to go because I really want to experience the culture and the lifestyles there and to travel around EU countries.
Friends around me kept on telling I can enjoy the "university life" there because it's California and my school was a famous party school, UCSB a.k.a University of Casual Sex and Beer.
I was terrified at that moment and one friend pat my shoulders and told me that all the universities are the same.
However, my heart seemed to oppose my decision. 
I wasn't really happy of heading to the U.S.
To be honest, I always tried to google something good about UCL to convince myself that UCL is actually better than UCSB so that I can really have excuse to go to the U.K instead of the U.S but I failed to do so.
In terms of credits and qualifications, UCSB is better.
Until last week, I decided to go to the U.K because that has been my dream from the very beginning.
Deep from my heart, I could always hear a voice calling me not to go to the U.S.
I am going to the University of Manchester, which is a better school compared to UCSB in terms of credits and exemptions, duration of study and costs.
After all, I realised that there are a lot of challenges, distractions and dilemmas in the journey of chasing dreams.
Sometimes we should really find a quiet place and think. Ask yourself what do you really want and be brave enough to go and pursue it.

大家都长大了 :)

时间过得真快
没想到多3个月就要出国了
在这两年的college life里
确实学到了也看清了许多东西
这两年过得还算是无忧无虑
除了读书整天吃喝玩乐
也认识了来自大马各个角落的朋友
一种米吃出百种人
在这两年里有着许多过客
有的一开始就来了,不久就离开了
有的一开始来了,始终都没离开过
有些迟来的离开了
也有些迟来的,目前还在
总觉得人就是这样
一开始的时候不懂得珍惜
到了要分开之时才来哭哭啼啼(当然包括我自己)
虽说如此可是彼此之间的友谊将永远牢固
我也理解到一段真挚的友情不只是欢乐和笑声
其中也必定有着许多争执和不愉快
但是人与人之间就是这样
在一起生活有所不满也在所难免
最重要是要懂得去包容还有接受彼此之间的缺点
离开大家的生活也已经过了两个星期
大家都在计划着一起去旅游
虽说一起去游玩是很享受很值得期待
但是整个行程的规划一点都不简单
其中也有一些意见分歧闹得不愉快
我不懂在未来的时日会发生什么事
我会去珍惜现在的每一刻
不要到时候又来后悔
现在看着周围的朋友,又看回去当初的自己和朋友们
觉得我们又长大了那么一点

Wednesday 25 June 2014

E.M.O

不知道为什么突然看回以前的post
觉得以前的自己好幼稚
有一些开心的回忆
也有伤心的
甚至还有一些我忘了是什么事情
总觉得现在的我都只会写一些感慨的post
真想念从前和朋友们一起的时刻
可是人生就是由那么多的起起落落、悲欢离合
总不可能一辈子和朋友呆在一起吧

Tuesday 24 June 2014

什么都不要想!

多一个星期又要开学了
又要回到每天烦三餐的日子
最近整个人都开朗了
暂时都把一切烦恼放下
轻松的日子过久了
很不想回去上课
如果我可以都每天懒洋洋的躺着
不愁吃喝
那该有多好
可是现实毕竟还是现实
那样的生活只在梦中出现
要赶快整理心情准备返回KL咯!